I was thinking the other day that I have a lot to be grateful for. I have a great husband, best friends, and a wonderful family – love you Mom! But sometimes instead of thinking about all of the positive things going on in my life or the people I get to share them with I can dwell or get sidetracked by even the smallest negatives.
Maybe it is a conversation that didn’t go the way I thought it would, or a night out that ended badly, or maybe I just burned the shit out of my hand and now I have a visible scar that won’t fucking heal. I swear these are the things that keep my wheels turning hours, days, and even years after they have happened.
You may be asking yourself what does this have to do with weight loss? Well to understand my weight loss or in recent years my weight gain you would first need to understand how my brain works (hint: I’m crazy).
When I’m upset or worse if I’ve upset someone I will play back what happened until I could perform it as a one-woman act on Broadway. And while I’m doing this I can most likely be found with a bag of candy in hand, cookies by my side, and is that pizza? You get the idea.
I’m not sure why I self-medicate with the very foods that end up making me feel like shit not to mention gain a shit ton (that’s a medical term) of weight. I guess if you’ve had a bad day or a bad hour and you reach for that glass of wine or the extra cocktail you have an understanding of how this process works.
I want to start developing healthy ways of coping but I’m not sure where to even begin.
What do you do when you need a personal timeout or a minute to deal with those everyday life occurrences that put a chink in your armor? Looking forward to learning some new techniques. Thank you for sharing!
photo credit: Jill Badlotto (bean and the stalk)